back~

long time never posts on stuffs up here ler...
shall put up a post soon...
haha...
friends complaining...
lol~

那些年。。。

剛看了《那些年，我們一起追的女孩》...
還滿多想法的...


相信每一個人的人生過程里，一定會有一位“沈佳儀” 或者“柯景騰”出現在你的生命里...
不管 她／他 是不是符合你原本定下的“男／女朋友的條件”...
喜歡，便變成你無法控制的事...

我的生命里的“柯景騰”不知道出現了沒...
或許是你吧...
總覺得，“那些年” 那首歌，那本書，和這部電影...
說得故事，和我們之間發生的事情很像...


其實，故事發生在很多人的身上吧...
以前，中學時...
總覺得，心裡偷偷喜歡就好...
不一定要讓對方知道...
但現在回想起來...
或許會覺得...
如果那時候，告訴他我喜歡他...
我們今天的關係會不會不一樣...


或許會... 或許不會...
但錯過... 終究是錯過了...
時間沒辦法迴轉...
人都必須往前走...


如果之後再碰到你...
不知道，我會用甚麼方式和你打招呼...
或許... 根本會說不上話吧...
真的很懷念... 那時候的我們...
那時候的我...
那時候的你...


最後... 想說的是...
無論你是誰...
看到這篇的你... 
無論在世界的哪個地方...
哪個角落...
我都祝福你...
祝福你...
早日找到你的 “沈佳儀” 或 “柯景騰” ...
也希望...
你們都能幸福...


加油...
雨

那些年

又回到最初的起點
記憶中妳青澀的臉
我們終於來到了這一天
桌墊下的老照片
無數回憶連結
今天男孩要赴女孩最後的約

又回到最初的起點
呆呆地站在鏡子前
笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結
將頭髮梳成大人模樣
穿上一身帥氣西裝
等會兒見妳一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的時光
回到教室座位前後　故意討妳溫柔的罵
黑板上排列組合　妳捨得解開嗎
誰與誰坐他又愛著她

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想擁抱妳　擁抱錯過的勇氣
曾經想征服全世界
到最後回首才發現
這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想告訴妳　告訴妳我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星
平行時空下的約定
再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳
緊緊抱著妳


又回到最初的起點
呆呆地站在鏡子前
笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結
將頭髮梳成大人模樣
穿上一身帥氣西裝
等會兒見妳一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的時光
回到教室座位前後　故意討妳溫柔的罵
黑板上排列組合　妳捨得解開嗎
誰與誰坐他又愛著她

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想擁抱妳　擁抱錯過的勇氣
曾經想征服全世界
到最後回首才發現
這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想告訴妳　告訴妳我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星
平行時空下的約定
再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳
緊緊抱著妳


那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想擁抱妳　擁抱錯過的勇氣
曾經想征服全世界
到最後回首才發現
這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想告訴妳　告訴妳我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星
平行時空下的約定
再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳
緊緊抱著妳






this song really reminds me of the times with you...
the movie really touch-ed the hearts of people all over the world...
love the storyline...
love the movie...
love the song...


雨

ceremony~~~

didn't want everyone to see the feelings that is overwhelming...
tears about to come out anytime...
so i excused myself and did not attend the debriefing...
sorry...
seriously cannot take it... stre~ss!
grrrrr...
guess i shall write it all here?!
haha... here goes...


end of the GREAT... BIG... SCARY challenge...
hah... maybe people will think...
"aiyah... not that scary larh..."
still... think that was my most scariest challenge ever...
totally no confidence from the start...
have to thank all my department members for helping me throughout...
^^ <3
everything was in a rush...
only one rehearsal was given for everything...
a lot of things cannot be confirmed on time...
last minute changes everywhere...
can say it's almost a mess...
but the performances of the instructors and main committee was awesome~
OC committee performance also of course... (*shall exclude myself... HAH*)


it seems like nothing has been right for me since i woke up today...
nervous from the minute i woke up...
cause saw the post reminding me that there's ceremony today...
grrrr...
simply put... *to myself* : YOU COULD HAVE DONE BETTER!!!
baka... ><
one word to sum up how i have been feeling from the moment rehearsal started till end of the ceremony
= STRE~SS!!!!!!
really have to thank a lot of people for encouraging me...
for the not so good performance... sorry~ ごめんなさい！


perhaps it's because of the expectation of what i gave myself... hah
too stress out... *cries out*
didn't really do much interpretation before...
so... *excuses for myself only*
mistakes from the start... haiz... ><


thanks to everyone from the opening ceremony...
my friends who gave me courage to take up the job...
people who gave me encouragements...
emcees, vincent and ishu...
fellow interpreter, xue ping...


and a very big THANK YOU to abby...
thanks for letting me challenge myself...
doing something that i've never done before... 
(*though i did not have confidence... still don't have*)
for the encouragements that you have given us...
for the support also...
for the many things that you have helped us (*me*) with...
really really really really really great to have known you in HI! Club...


it's 11/11/11... can i make a wish...
i hope things will go well for me from now onwards...
はい！　がんばってくだいさい！


じゃね


小雨




p.s.:oh ya! at least one thing made me happy today...
SAW ZAF!!!! 
it has really really been a long time... really missed signing with her...
haha...

new school term...

kind of dreading for tomorrow to come...
one month internship at the Esplanade was awesome...
but long over now...
haiz... kind of miss the backstage^^ haha...


time goes damn FAST sia...
tomorrow... marks the day of a new school term...
new semester...
also indicating that half of our poly lives are over...
WOAH~


nothing to look forward to for tomorrow...
starting off the new term and week with Idea Launchpad...
dreading it...
the others all have IS elective while i DON'T! damn...
only a boring IS lecture to bear with... *groans*
same classmates... (p.s. : can't we change?! ><)
oh wells...
only lesson to look forward to...
i guess... is my Japanese Lessons?!
hah!


besides lessons... meetings and stuffs are cropping up here and there...
1) meetings for CDAC event on tuesday, wednesday and saturday...
2) CDAC performance @ Yishun on sunday...
3) music box operator duties for Concert Band performance on 24th & 25th...
4) meetings sure gonna come up for the upcoming Hi! Club Opening Ceremony... (plus rehearsals too)


hmmm... that's all for now?!
lolz... actually it's quite a lot... HAH...
はい！　がんばろ！




じゃ〜
雨

long time over...

it's been so long since i'm up on msn talking to someone...
just tried to talk someone out...
cause of her problems that she have recently with her BF...
wells... 
not that i'm in the right position to say anything...
cause i haven been in one before...
but...
i tried my best...
to talk her out...
to help her find the solution to the problem...
and i hope she'll be ok...


tears flooded out when i saw her blogpost...
never seen that side of her before...
so tired... 
and perhaps... a bit...
helpless...?
somehow... i feel that it'll do her good if she just ends everything... 
like now...
but... if she's happy with continuing...
well... i hope she'll be happy...


sometimes... 
when you know that you want to help with something...
but you can't do a thing...
that feeling seriously sucks...
starts to feel the same way as the person in needed of help...
but... you can't let them sense it too...
if not, they might feel guilty...
feel that they have caused you some burden...
sucks...
to keep everything away...
to bury it deep inside your heart...
to not let anyone else know your troubles...
cause you just know that you can't tell anyone else...


who can i turn to... ?
at this point of time... ?
guess...
the answer is : NO ONE...
oh wells... seems like i've gotten used to it...
doesn't matters to me now...
just hide away...
like a hermit crab...?
hah




looked through my list of people which i've added on msn...
was a bit surprised...
you...
blocked...
me... ?
i didn't even know when you blocked me from your contacts...
guess... it's really the end...
thanks for the answer...
i get it...
time to press the 'DELETE' button in my mind...
to erase everything and start over again...
with a fresh new mind...


i don't know why... but...
i'm like getting further and further away from my friends...
maybe more specifically...
my classmates...
i have no idea why...
but that's the feeling i get...
i guess... it's ok for me to hide away again...
and live by my own... ?
just treat me as though i'm transparent...
i'll thank you for that...


things for which i need to think for myself...
i need time...
and for myself to be alone...


希望...
一切...
事情...
煩惱...
能夠...
圓滿結束...


雨

擁有＝失去的開始？

擁有是失去的開始...      嗎？
不曾擁有, 就不怕失去...       嗎？


不同的人，有不同的見解...


有人說：
如果不曾擁有，那當然不用怕失去啊...
只有是你的，你才會有失去的可能...
如果不是你的，那沒了，也不關你的事啊...




... 沒了， 也［好像］不關你的事啊...


...［好像］...
...［可能］...
...［也許］...
...［應該］...


好像... 人生好像都會有許多我們不知正確答案的問題...
比如：擁有＝失去的開始？
            不曾擁有＝不怕失去？


以上，換你回答...
是真的嗎？ 你怎麼看待？


又有些人會說：
即使到頭來會失去... 也要放手一搏...
努力爭取自己想擁有的...
至少... 擁有過... 
失去了... 也曾經有過那麼美好的回憶在腦海里...
如果，因為害怕失去而放棄擁有...
那麼... 可悲...
因為，當你看到別人擁有了你曾經想有的...
你難道不會失落...?
不會自責...？
不會感覺到生命力少了甚麼...？
不會後悔... 嗎?
到頭來，你還是失去了...


與其因為害怕而不努力爭取...
不如相信自己的力量...
努力了，如果還得不到，那或許你真的該放棄...
但如果可以... 
那就放膽的去擁有吧...
或許 能夠走到天長地久...


擁有一段美麗的回憶...
總好過，甚麼... 都沒有...


你們說是嗎？


雨