long time over...

it's been so long since i'm up on msn talking to someone...
just tried to talk someone out...
cause of her problems that she have recently with her BF...
wells... 
not that i'm in the right position to say anything...
cause i haven been in one before...
but...
i tried my best...
to talk her out...
to help her find the solution to the problem...
and i hope she'll be ok...


tears flooded out when i saw her blogpost...
never seen that side of her before...
so tired... 
and perhaps... a bit...
helpless...?
somehow... i feel that it'll do her good if she just ends everything... 
like now...
but... if she's happy with continuing...
well... i hope she'll be happy...


sometimes... 
when you know that you want to help with something...
but you can't do a thing...
that feeling seriously sucks...
starts to feel the same way as the person in needed of help...
but... you can't let them sense it too...
if not, they might feel guilty...
feel that they have caused you some burden...
sucks...
to keep everything away...
to bury it deep inside your heart...
to not let anyone else know your troubles...
cause you just know that you can't tell anyone else...


who can i turn to... ?
at this point of time... ?
guess...
the answer is : NO ONE...
oh wells... seems like i've gotten used to it...
doesn't matters to me now...
just hide away...
like a hermit crab...?
hah




looked through my list of people which i've added on msn...
was a bit surprised...
you...
blocked...
me... ?
i didn't even know when you blocked me from your contacts...
guess... it's really the end...
thanks for the answer...
i get it...
time to press the 'DELETE' button in my mind...
to erase everything and start over again...
with a fresh new mind...


i don't know why... but...
i'm like getting further and further away from my friends...
maybe more specifically...
my classmates...
i have no idea why...
but that's the feeling i get...
i guess... it's ok for me to hide away again...
and live by my own... ?
just treat me as though i'm transparent...
i'll thank you for that...


things for which i need to think for myself...
i need time...
and for myself to be alone...


希望...
一切...
事情...
煩惱...
能夠...
圓滿結束...


雨