WTH!!!

ever tried dealing with a lot of problems at one go?!


sometimes, i really don't understand why things have to happen all at the same time...
sometimes, you want it to come, but it doesn't...
other times, when you don't want it, it comes rolling into your way...
what exactly is this?!


IF...
i had never gone on that thing...
IF...
i had never heard about it...
IF...
i was that insensitive to things...
IF...
i can don't know anything...
IF...
i don't know them...
IF...
i did not cared...
IF... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
damn... what's the use of listing all the IFs down...
when all has already happened?! what am i thinking?!


if anyone have a cure for me... i'll be glad to take it...
if anyone could share these problems with me... i'll be glad to share...
if anyone can save me from these things... i'll be glad to be saved...
if i can just turn a blind eye to it and not do anything... i'll be glad to do so...
if i can just do that... 
but i can't...


why do you have to just fill me in on the details...
i did not want to know in the first place...
i did not even ask you to tell me...
why are you just so selfish to just dump everything to me...
like i'm your rubbish bin... dumping your trash into me... 
without asking whether i want to know a not...


don't know whether to really believe you or not... 
because you are also biased...
you are involved as well...
i can't help but think that you are saying this to help yourself...
who shall i believe...


lost...
confused... 
frustrated...
angered...
injured...


you tell me to forward it to her... 
but... can i really tell her...?!
NO! i can't...
i can't risk it...
i just hope that they will be more careful of themselves...


and YOU!...
are you really that blur that you just follow whatever they tell you to do?!
just answer without any restrain to any questions?!
are you really the one that i know?!
you are getting to be more and more like a stranger now to me...
who are you?!
do i know you?!
can you please quit playing and return back to your normal self?!
it's scary at the thought...
of how you can just tell them anything and even join in their discussion...
i'm getting tired of trying to see the time when i can tell you things safely...
without the things getting said out... by YOU...
really...
seriously...
feel like dragging you out and ask you everything...
of what is happening...
of what you know about it...
but... i can't as well...


people whom i can trust...
are getting lesser and lesser...
people whom won't harm those that i treasure...
i'm not sure who will that be...
who can i trust now... ?
who won't harm me... ?
who won't harm those that i treasure... ?
i know not...


迷惑...
失望...
受傷...
無法言語...


雨

exam!!!

having EM3A exam later at 6.30pm...
after that, got to go down to LT 26 for opening ceremony... (just for a while^^)

one thing made me super happy today!!!
got to sign out DSLR from school!!! YAY!!!
got a Nikon D80... damn cool!!!
got to have it for the whole of this sem!!! YAY!!!
cool max!!!

雨

rants?!

just reached home like don't know how many minutes or just an hour ago?!
hmmmm... went to bathe... then sat down at the dining table and ate green bean soup^^
while... studying for Jap quiz tomorrow... haiz...


revision and the rehearsal went quite well just now?!
haha... got to see the main comm's performance...
that's the good thing about being in PA department^^
got to play with the lightings too! ^^
haha... but oh well...
got teased by Timothy again... haha...
don't really care though... 


(dad's driving me to sleep while i'm typing this post... HAH! o.O)
few thoughts drawn out by an artist (fits my feelings now):

雨

worried~

EM3A exams on Friday... day when we have Hi!Club Opening Ceremony...
haiz... hating Mr Kwek for that...
seriously... though... if not for polling day...
the day for the paper wont be pushed back...
damn sian...
having revision class later... then rehearsal for opening ceremony?!
hmmmmmmm...
hope will get good results for EM3A...


one thing's bottled up in my heart...
should i say it in here...
feels that it's not very safe...
haiz... hmmm... sandra knows... haha...
but she'll be blur if anyone ask her what thing... 
so... don't...
nvm... shall not say today... haha...
though i feel like saying...


當我在微薄上得知你生病了...
你知道我有多擔心嗎...
請你一定要好好的照顧自己...
別讓我們擔心了...
工作歸工作...
你還是要休息的啊...
你吖... 唉...


雨

hi! club...

Sean had me transferred over from logistics to the pa department...
under him and abby, alongside with kai xiang...
i actually don't mind... but i feel a bit bad...
cos i already said ok to Glenda to being in logistics...
it's been a long time since i last saw her...
originally wanting to give her her present during the meeting today...
but Sean sms-ed me and said that i do not need to go down as pa do not need to meet...
missed one chance of meeting her just like this...
maybe I'll ask to be in the same department as Glenda in closing ceremony then...
really wished to work alongside with her...
sorry Glenda... really did not know that Sean will actually transfer me over to pa just like that... haiz...
nvm...


need to hurry up finish with my OIE report and presentation slides...
originally, thinking of going in Malaysia with my mum and auntie, since i no need to go for meeting today...
but... got reminded by my mind that i have to do report... which is to be submitted by tomorrow...
haiz... anyways, glad that i have sort of finished my AVMP's mini project...
haha...


caught up with a lot of dramas on hand... hmmm... just finished sunny happiness...
channel x, also off my list... but new dramas are coming in... fast...
like recently, i'm like totally into Rainie's new drama, 醉後決定愛上你... (Allison also! HAH!)
also... Pets's new drama, 飛行少年...
both super nice!!! haiz...
but still, drama is one thing... have to focus more on my studies this year...
cannot afford to slack... year 2 ler! phew...
first week of school past... moving on... hope i'll get use to the new modules fast...


雨

dream?!

all feels like a dream... seriously...
one month just pass like that, with a blink of my eye...
everything is going too fast, i seem to not be able to keep pace with it...
came back from Chengdu, started school again...
best thing ever! seeing oZZumies again! haha <3
celebrated Lewyu's birthday today... though her birthday was actually yesterday!
haha... but still... hehe...
4th day of school, and we all have a mini project to do already...
2nd year already... cannot slack sooo much as in 1st year...
haha...


cca fiesta went great... quite a lot of people from our oip group went to join Hi! Club...
maybe cause under our influence?! HAHA!
quite happy to see so many people join... but the intake seem to be falling?! hmmm...
don't know very well... haha
oh well... presentation for OIE clashes with HI-O!... hmmm... 
anyways, HI-O seems none of my business now... haha...
Glenda contacted me just now...
asking me whether i wanna join her in the logistics department for opening ceremony... haha...
of cause! she is like one of the few that i can really really really really really talk to in Hi! Club...
other than allison, sean, Zaf (whose not in NP anymore)...
that's why i will surely join her!
haiz... miss Zaf... anticipating 2A's dinner! so that i can see Zaf again! yay!


Chengdu was great! had made some friends there!... like Justin, Tian Xiang, Bella, Li Xue, Zou Ran, Zhou Yuan, Le Han and the others as well! they were all very friendly and nice people!
they showed us around Chengdu, brought us out to play and eat and shop!
Justin is coming to Singapore to play and maybe work part-time here as well...
not sure when though... but he will surely come! 
my group had said that if he come, it'll be our turn to bring him around Singapore... HAHA!
Zou Ran is also trying to get a chance to come to Singapore! 
he said that there is a chance for him to come to NP for exchange program, and he is confident that he maybe able to get that chance...! wee~
haha... 
if they two come, it'll be great! like that we can see our friends from China again! haha

went to see Gamelan SYF today... 1st one to perform was Siglap Sec...
then, was Bukit Panjang Sec... then Hougang Sec, then finally EVG...
but regretfully, i had to leave when they are performing...
got news from my seniors later that EVG got Silver again... while Siglap and Hougang both got gold...
although i feel that EVG could have gotten gold, i am still proud of them!
at least, we maintained our Silver...
it's ok juniors! next time, get back gold with HONOURS!!!^^
you guys can do it!


你的EP我從我朋友那裡拿到了...
聽了很多遍...
打從心裡真心喜歡你的聲音...
真的很好聽...
也很喜歡你所唱的歌曲... 
你的EP裡的歌曲... 都在形容你的不同性格...
讓我從你歌曲裡，更瞭解你...
最近你都會在內地跑宣傳...
記得要照顧好自己...
別把自己累壞了...
加油... 期待你以後更多的作品... <3

雨

BIG DAY!!!!

tomorrow... is... the... day!!!
hahahaa... ChengDu!!!
i cannot believe that time actually flies soooo fast!!!
it was like only in Jan that i confirmed that i am going for this trip...
and now... it's like tomorrow i'm flying off!
seriously... my gosh...
my luggage is like damn heavy...
confirm need to pay airport tax already~ haiz...
too many things inside...
besides... my luggage is hard cover... which makes it heavier...
=.= ...

9th march... 2 big things are gonna happen...
besides the fact that i am going ChengDu...
Arron's new song is gonna come out!!!! YAY!!!
and on 10th march... which is thursday... HIS MV COMING OUT!!! YAY!!! <3
cannot wait for it!!! TOTALLY!!!
then on 11th march... my friend gonna help me preorder his EP from Popular...
25th march is his BIG DAY!!! WOOHOO!!! TOO EXCITED!!!
< The Next Me >


努力了那麼久... 你的EP終於要面市了...
我期待你的個人作品很久了...
消息一出來... 我是真的替你開心的不得了...
期待慘了... 開心慘了... <3
期待聽到你的首播主打：《下一個我》
也期待拿到你的作品：《下一個炎亞綸》
<3


雨